we wait for kingdom come with the radio on

just sent an email to my hook up at a jeep dealership (being a hairdresser means knowing someone in pretty much every field). since paul bought a truck this week that means i can start looking for a jeep. i should be back in a wrangler before the winter. thank god. i cant go another winter in the yaris. this last year was terrifying. ill give up some gas mileage for safety. id rather pay a little more to fill the tank.

i can do cardio all day. i have no problem getting the heart rate up and working through those moments where you feel like your legs are on fire. i love cardio.

i hate strength training.

and i think its from years of degenerating my shoulders at work. my shoulder joints click. if i roll them forward or back to loosen them they snap and pop and crackle and crunch. so trying to do push ups is like instant pain and tears. even if i do the girly way with my knees bent. its like a searing pain that i just cant seem to push myself past. i just give up. because it hurts. and i want to do the lunges and bicep curls. i want to be able to work through the entire workout without having to stop and put my arms down.

but …. im sore for a good 2 or 3 days after. and try holding up a blow dryer when your shoulders are numb and screaming.

this i know is just my excuse to not push myself as hard as i should. this is my excuse to be a little lazy and not do the entire workout.

and i kind of hate myself for falling for it.

because i want arms that are toned and badass. and i know i have to do the work to get them.

but im sore and it hurts and waaa

last night was my graduation. my mother and paul came with me. it was 30$ per ticket. which is ridiculous. greg made all the students sit up front while he made a really awkward speech about america being thebestcountryever and then each teacher came up and made a speech. dr. john’s was funny and sentimental. jims was loud and sarcastic but he did make everyone clap for me because of the t-shirts i made for the last day of class (f u jim) then greg decided to inform us that we all had to make a speech before we got our transcripts and certificates. that asshole. so jon says something snarky about thanks for letting us know about this and greg goes well i didnt want to stress you out.

as we are all dancing in our seats because we are stressed that we have to think of something to say infront of all our family and friends and shit.

so when its my turn to go up to the mic i walk up to it and say “that was the longest 14 months of my life” and then i added something cheesy about how i wouldnt trade it for anything and blah blah blah so i walk over to greg and i go to shake his hand and he grabs me and hugs me. fml. it was one of those too tight hugs that lasts 2 seconds longer then you want it to.

so after i go down the line i sit down and open my transcripts and A+ down the line except for one. spa 2. A. ahahaha i was psised.

but jon had the same grades as me so i guess he and i are the class nerds.

then we walked into another section of the spencer country inn where the food was. (also a bar) and pauls peeking around the corner into another room and greg starts yelling at him, we are over here! he says so paul just looks at him like wtf dude and i said yeah paul come on youre not allowed to look anywhere else.

fucking greg is such a douche bag i hate that man.

me mom paul laurie her boyfriend mike kimmy and her wife sarah sat at a table. which was the perfect group. we had a good time. cracking jokes taking pictures. i bought a round for me mom and paul and then laurie made me go into the bathroom because she had nips in her pocketbook. lol

the buffet was terrible. rolls. weak plain salad. some baked veggie lasagna. chicken. NO dessert. not a one in sight no cake no nothing. whats a party without cake??

so we left at like 915. we had fun anyways, we always have fun no matter what. suzi’s daughter was there and she’s 3 and she was in love with paul. she kept giving him these eyes that if a 25 year old was looking at him like that i would have to throw punches. she was seriously undressing him with her big 3 year old eyes. it was fucking hilarious.

so he kept picking her up and waving at her and it was cute. then luis comes over with his son who is not quite 1 and just hands him to me like the kids got his arms out stretched and i just grab this big ball of baby and hes burying his face in my neck and not making eye contact which is funny and i look over at paul and hes holding gwen and im holding luis jr and im like wtf we have to leave here now there are babies in our arms.

so yeah. i graduated. got my certificate, now i can mail away for my license. thank god thats over.

kirstierh:

We could run all night
And dance upon the architecture
Come and take my hand
I’ll do the very best I can
Boy, I still want to be your man
I’m still these nervous feet and heart of stone
Forget this dead man’s town, I’ll take you home 

just did the level 1 of 30 minute shred. wtf. i was like alright ill try it, it wont be too hard.

wrong.

i was gritting my teeth and screaming through half of it. and perfect little jillian michaels is on the screen not even glistening. and her two perfect side kicks standing behind her giggling at her quips barely even moist. im sweating my ass off and trying not to puke.

so basically it was awesome and i will be doing it again tomorrow.